* lyn : )

♥ Monday, April 30, 2007 ♥

11:35:00 PM

It's Michelle's birthday today! sweet seventeen girl!

i believed i was smart today cause i didn't go for the tutorial in the morning cause it's like e learning! pity those people who had to wake up so early to go for that.. =P Eileen cant attend the class cause she overslept and she's super lucky cause it's e learning.. same goes for Michelle..

then after lecture, the whole group of us went to amk for our pizza hut's meal together with Justin, Yee Leng's friend. our group mainly consist of me, Michelle, Eileen, Yee Leng and Feei Chyin. it was a nice nice meal.. been a long time since i last eaten pizza hut's la. i miss swensens' as well as sakae sushi and i really miss hanging out w my girls.. ):

me, feei chyin, mich

me, eileen, feei chyin, yee leng, mich

kayaking was nice although it was really tough on my wrist cause it seems that was my weakest point.. so hmm. the seniors are choosing the better ones out from the group. somehow it's like i'm having mixed feelings about this. haiz.. wondered if i made the right choice..

AND IT's 12am now and it's labour day! happy labour day to all esp students cause we dun have to study! HAHAHA!

12:06:00 AM

~*~Things i wan asap~*~
a black/white/dark brown jacket
a nice white/black bag for lecture notes
green ipod nano

~*~Things i wan but not in a rush~*~
a new phone by end of the year
a bluetooth adapter for my lappie
learn yoga
new watch

(and the list goes on....)

♥ Sunday, April 29, 2007 ♥

11:30:00 PM

It's Monday tomorrow again. which means there's sch and my cca again =) i just love those trainings.. it's really goanna be a long long long day, but i supposed things will be fine. classes will be starting at 1110, ending at 12pm. and electives will begin at 2pm till 5pm and kayaking will begins at 6pm, ending about 9pm. cool.

It will be week three tomorrow and there's still lots of things i'm not too sure about it. especially biology sciences and there's no one i can ask help from.. i understand that knowing the names of body parts are important.. but somehow it's not too easy to remember them.. worse still, i believe we have to know those spellings right. oh man. my dead points..

But one thing i'm sure.. It's only the third week.. so i wont give up so easily. it's only been 1o days of school. how can i give up so easily. this is so unlike me la. i guessed. but i believe i goanna strive real hard if i really want to make it to local U. It's not going to be easy i know but with preservation, i believe i can do it. i must have faith in myself.. i can do it definitely.

i believe with beliefs, i can do it.
so everyone, do have some faith in me.

♥ Friday, April 27, 2007 ♥

9:18:00 PM

i finally got back to PWP SB14!! YAY! super super happy to see them. oh man, the feeling is something which i just cant describe la. managed to see MK, ah boy, Felix and not forgetting samantha! and i saw Hui yu also la. HAHA. too bad didnt get to see yi ping and joan ):

got my 38 bucks back from the company and will be getting pay tonight as well.. HAHAHAHA!! super good can. class ends at 11am today and i took 76 to see them.. overall it was great. looking at warehouse's bus stop area and pwp.. really makes me think back on those days.. oh sigh.. but i really really enjoyed everything over there other than that someone in the past. oh well, let's forgive and forget bah.

today was super fun la. i had breaks with 3 different people. it was super funny la. first was having break with MK and we went to yoshinoya which was like 'finally, mk did change his mind instead of eating BK'..HAHA. then after that i went to eat MOS burger with Samantha.. it was really nice to eat la. then after that when it was about her break end, then we went back to shop and saw AH BOY at smoking area. then my first reaction was like OMG, what happen to your hair lah.. it was damn funny la. then actually i realised there was many people looking at me la. hahas.

AH BOY, MK and SAMANTHA all change their hairstyle and it was superly funny la. i seriously miss them (= though the journey to there and going back home was a very long one, but somehow it's really worth it.. for seeing them....... =D

♥ Tuesday, April 24, 2007 ♥

9:02:00 PM

I just feel as though i've finally understood some of the concepts in life. no matter how bad things are, it seems at the end of the day we'll definitely gain something. be it good or bad, cause i know my route has long been plan for me by the special one up there. it's only dependent on oneself whether you want to believe it or not.

somehow i just feel after 9 months, i understood what i really want and i've finally got my answer after such a long wait.. no wait, probably it sholdn't be considered long.. certain people have got an entire lifetime just to find out their answer.. whereas i took less than a year. maybe this is called affinity =DDD

i love my current life right now =)
-single and liking it-

♥ Sunday, April 22, 2007 ♥

9:41:00 PM

i feel super stressed up now. and it's only the beginning of week one. lecture's has been alright, but somehow there's lots of terms i am expected to know but somehow i just couldn't remember them well. and exams are like in a month's time. how to finish studying by then? seriously, i have never, never fuss over my exams or even tests. probably it's due to the fact i've not attended biology in my secondary school days and now i'm getting frustrated over those big big words which i get to see them in my lecture notes. ('chim' words: hypochondrium, epigastrium, lumbar region, iliac region, hypogastrium, umbilical region)

maybe i'm slowly losing the confidence i once had. probably it's due to my dearest 4e3. somehow studying seems weird without them. without them to study together with me just feel entirely different. somehow it feels as if i lost an arm or something cause i know, whenever i'm unsure about anything i've lots of people to fall back to and i know, they wont leave me behind. now, i'm unsure of what the future holds for me. I admit i do make friends, but i know, it takes time for me to know their inner self as well.

i wanna share my work piece with you people.. some inner thoughts of myself and my profession (= and i wanna thank ridzwan, kingston and yingyun for helping me!! thanks people! x)

the question: do you think that nurses should always be selfless and courageous?

I believe that they (nurses) should always place their patient’s health as the priority instead of their personal feelings. This is because the main aim of being a nurse is to delicate their service to the health care and ensure their patients take the least number of days to recover. If every nurse always thinks about his or her feelings as the priority, then the service they provide for their patients will definitely suffer and many patients will take plenty days to recover from their illness. If this happens in the long run, the entire workforce in that particular country will suffer as none of the nurses will try their best to provide service to the sick. The hospital and the patients will have to spend a huge sum of money as the patient stays for a longer period of time in the hospital.

A nurse has to be courageous as they, being the role model of the public, should be able to face with danger every time they are in the hospital as they, themselves have to expose their own bodies to the bacterial and germs that are available in the wards. If all the nurses are fearful of death and refused to work, then there will not be able people who will render their services to the sick and thus, it’ll result in more death in the particular country.

However, there would be times when nurses should be selfish. For example, when they are handling patient 1 by helping them to go to a certain location such as aiding them to the toilet, a family member of patient 2 comes and asks the nurse to help. The nurse should be selfish by rejecting the family member of patient 2 as patient 1 may have problems with his own and thus, he needed a nurse. If the nurse decides to go with the family member and leave patient 1 there, he (patient 1) may have a fall and injured himself. Thus I believe to a certain extent, a nurse may have some acts of selfishness. However, in this case, the nurse may choose to let another nurse go with patient 2’s family member.

The nurse can be afraid of death to some degree as well. They themselves are also a human being and may have their own family or parents to take care of. Therefore, it is not unusual for a nurse to be afraid of death as they might not want their own family to grieve over their death. In addition, they might have their own worries like having to take care of a young child in the family. In addition the nurses themselves might be the sole breadwinner of the family and thus they should not be “killed” by the illness thus it is reasonable enough not to work at the very front line to render their service to health care.

up to you to agree a not, but to a certain extent, i think i'm quite reasonable =)) anyway, it was my discussion topic actually. tomorrow's lesson will be a breeze. one lecture and one tutorial and class ending at 12pm. But got to stay back for my project work and for kayaking. hope things will be fun everyday =D

4:24:00 PM

suddenly looking back at those post i once blog in another account, it really makes me ponder whether i should regret my initial decision or not. is it right? or was it wrong? i really cant decide. but one thing for sure, the first few days were once the happiest moments i ever had. it was fun to be with you, nothing to worry. but it was rather silly of me to forsake my studies.

in another perspective, i must say probably it was a right decision to stop everything during mid july. which at least, i had the chance to focus on my education. but sometimes i wondered, if everything continuted on, probably i'd have scored better? cuz i know, for certain subjects when i was taking during 'O', my mind was still filled with you you and still YOU. i imagined u to be there with me and everything.

only months and months later, did i have the guts to speak out what i've been thinking all day long. it has been a pain for so long.. i really wanna be friends back with you again. but why i cant see that opportunity coming towards my way. but if it really comes, can i really make the right decision? i guess it's goanna be something very embarrassed la. *hais*

only after 9 months, 9 months of my life later did i really find out wad i really want in my life. i have found out what i really want in my life and that's to achieve my best in NYP. at least that's what i'm aiming for now. i really wanna get a degree in NUS!! =DD

♥ Thursday, April 19, 2007 ♥

5:51:00 PM

I'VE FINALLY GOT A LABTOP.
was like.. finally.

so i still wanna my green ipod nano
and i wan to get a thumbdrive, a bluetooth adaptor for my labtop
and i probably need a bigger bag for all my lecture notes and my laptop

after so long, i've finally got my decision la, and i'm getting the smaller version of the notebook. cuz it's like $4oo over cheaper, less bulky. but on the other hand, i managed to upgrade this notebook i have to a bigger ram (which my sis says it's for speed) and it's lighter(:

got a whole day of lecture and i tell u, it sucks la!!!! horrible lectures. and i got to wake up at 5.3o la!! damn tiring on my way back home w so much lecture lots, and the notebook.. my shoulder nearly break into two pieces la.

I'm joining NYP's Student Union!!!!! and i'm unsure whether i'd like to choose floorball or canoeing..... cuz the both of them seems nice...

♥ Monday, April 16, 2007 ♥

8:27:00 PM

I'm just so pissed off by wad my sch did lahs. first was the labtops thing. none seemed even to bothered w it. so wells, i think i just goanna buy it thru the fair rather than waiting for this school to approve my interest free labtop thing la. cuz it's like by the time they approve, the fair is like already finish la. so how? just buy it loh. i guess i just loan like 1k from my sister or wad? and i got to pay the rest ):

second was there was this stupid error on my class schedule. it written as us, after our lecture there'd be a 2hours break b4 the e learnin thing. BUT it turn out to be a typo error. it wasnt suppose to be gp 14, but was gp 24. so my whole class waited for two hours before we go to the e learning lab and we were told it wasnt our time slot. argh.

oh, and today was the first day of school. lecture was damn funny la.

♥ Friday, April 13, 2007 ♥

9:37:00 PM

i wanna thank JONATHAN, yes big jon, for being there when i needed company :D
thanks pal!

8:22:00 PM

today's my orientation. and it's superly fun. GP FOURTEEN! made new frens there which includes michelle, fei4 qin2, elieen and yee leng. saw lots and some of my pri sch friends like yu ye, yi ting... guess that's abt it ba.. and saw some of tpss ppl.. like joanna, bi zhen, swee yee, fatin and of cuz my mummy, YY!

i cant really express how fun the games there were.. i guess my student mentors were jus nice=) my gp got the consolation prize.. hahhaas. food were distrbuted to us.. the hungry souls. it was fun doing all those cheers and playing those games guess that's wad team spirits were abt..

oh by the way, the food given to us arent nice ): everyone complained abt them.. hahhaahah

meeting des tmr for ruimin's chalet! =))

♥ Sunday, April 08, 2007 ♥

2:47:00 PM

School's starting soon. pretty looking forward to it. imagine having attachments in year one, which i think is good.. So i dun have study as much as others, but i can get into more hands on work :D yiting, my primary sch mates, will be taking the same diploma as me. and so it ying yun and bizhen. hopefully all of us get into the same class?

Orientation's coming this fri (13th april) and school's starting on the 16th. It's pretty rush especially my school is having the last orientation of all nyp.

Chinhui's coming to my sch tmr. and i have to make a trip down to nyp again nxt week before my orientation cuz i got to sumbit the form for my labtops which is goanna be damn sian la.

♥ Thursday, April 05, 2007 ♥

3:42:00 PM

Somehow i ought to feel fortuate.

I have wonderful parents who cares for me.
a dad to bring in money to pull me thru my poly or probably uni.
i have a ultra good mum who cooks things i wanna eat
i have a jie who never fails to lead me
i have a younger sister whom i can dote on
i dun have to worry about money matters like my frens

but i dun understand why i'm never contented

was it the society to blame?
or probably i'm well-fed since young

♥ Monday, April 02, 2007 ♥

11:06:00 AM

No matter wad, all good things will come to an end and it's true.

After four months and 1o days of work for pwp sb14, it's finally time for me to move on to something else and that's prepare for schooling in nyp. kind of looking forward to nyp. but still, i'm missing my collegues now.

vividly, i can still recall my first day of work. it's as though things have jus passed a day ago. i still remember how i preserve for the first and a half month working w HER. things werent good at all. i still rmb the first conversation Jun Jie said. and i believe my shocking expression. cuz it's like he's an ah beng la. and he asked me whether i wanted a drink or smth and he asked me to buy chicken wing from crystal jade..

xiao jing looked pretty fierce and i didnt talk to her much. and after my first week of work, both xiao jing and jun jie resigned.

ironically the first person who was real nice wasnt from my shop, but it was the cleaner who came to collect rubbish. it sounds rather ridiculous, but yet, it was so true. cuz initially everyone in my shop seemed to be rather deep.

the first person i got to know was Zhi Zhong. he thought me a lot of stuffs from how to fold clothes to cashiering and how to serve customer and almost everything i know now. i dun ever know how to thank him for teaching me all those..

the first friend i ever had was Diana. but it was very much after i started working cuz at that period, she was a junior part timer and i seldom get to see her. and i knew her was only bcuz we came frm the same sch and had this teacher, MR LAI!! (which was very coincidence)

xiu zhen came in after i knew Diana. She seems nice.. but lots of bad things happen afterwards.

Then verlin joined the company (11th dec) and slowly i knew everyone.. 17 days after verlin join, felix came in as well (28th dec) ..and diana resigned one month after felix came in. and xiu zhen resigned on the 4th of jan.

Lots of gossips happened in sb14. and to me working was definately just for the sake of money cuz i hate working w HER. slowly after xiu zhen resigned i became even closer w sb14.. SHE became even better w me and everyone believed SOMEONE probably had either badmouth or backstab us.

then, my shifts started to be closer w Clare, my dearest xiao bu... and i realised that SOMEONE had really badmouth her.. for xiao bu wasnt like wad that person had told me. so ya. things are getting better and better btw me, clare, verlin and diana. we also have had links w snk which are wendi and yi ping.

as everyone took the same route back home, we always take bus tgt. and that's bus 15. then we'd smuggle up food and started talking super loudly in the bus and that was considered one of the best times i had... it was really fun talking abt how tired we were or how bad sales was etc.

and diana left us shortly. then samantha joined us 2 days later.

but still things were really fun and we had this close bonding btw us. and PWP was really a nice place to work. and about one month later, i had this convertion and i offically became a part timer on 28th feb cuz i realised it was really fun w clare around.

then there was a major shifting in SK. and all three in charge went away which were damn sad cuz we didnt even had a gathering la.

AND then bad things happened. Clare got transfered to PS on the week i convert. which is damn sad la. then we had a meal at HK cafe which clare treat us on 27th feb which was supposed to be our pay day..

then mk came in and the fun started again. then there was joan and there's wei xiang too. but i must say although the time spent wasnt long, but i truely enjoyed myself too. and i left the company on 31st march with much sadness cuz it was due to my mum constant naggings.

pics on my last day: